friends and trust
I have a nice group of supportive online friends. I’m afraid I’m alienating them by my continued absence.
That’s the last thing I should be doing, I know. It’s just hard for me to operate on a less-than-honest level. If this is what is dominating my life, it’s what I want to write about. It’s what I will write about. If it’s a secret, then I can’t very well write about it in public. While I’d like to trust all of my friends enough to write openly, I can’t believe that would be smart. There is always the person who doesn’t quite get it or thinks they understand something that they don’t, and that person can compromise you. Get you hurt or killed.
I’m having a hard time trusting people right now.